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This is just a list of stuff I want to eventually get for my room once I move out~ Kind of a pointless post. xP Its mostly just so I can remember where everything is and start designing a room of my own, and it's a list of things I've decided to take with me when I move

I'm gonna be subletting up in the summer, so I probably won't get anything permanent except for a mattress that I can just put on the floor...a real bed can come later, it's not like I actually need one. xP (I used to sleep on the floor, then I got a craptastic bed that fell apart after about a year...my bedframe is not composed of a jumble of wooden slats, books, duct tape, and cinderblox...I am the MacGyver of furniture, yes I am.) And I'll be taking my desk and...probably my bookshelf with me, the rest of my furniture is being thrown away sometime next week, I think.

So uh...things I'm taking with me! Just stuff of a decorative and furniture nature.

-Books, one large cardboard box full.
-Some plushies and my toy dinosaurs.
-Two lamps, one blue and one pink.
-Hot pink trashcan and small circular rug.
-Large wooden and metal desk, with metal rack for holding papers.
-Tezuka Osamu framed Artwork (Captain Atom and Black Jack), one black and green elephant bedspread from India (I use it as a wall hanging), Swedish flag, and Brown and light blue curtains.

...I just realized that my bookshelf is more broken than I realized, so that won't be comming with me. x___x;
I also just realized that none of my stuff matches. >.<;; -flails weakly-

I'll probably end up going with a blue theme to my room, to go with my curtains and desk lamp...and my bedding...
But yeah, things I'm gonna make/buy!

-http://www.instructables.com/id/Home-made-Sun-Jar/ (D: So cool <3 And a great way to light my room at night without raising electricity bills!)
-http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/S09849767 (Beds are good to have)
-http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/90027811 (I could probably keep clothes in there)

...Okay, I looked too hard at Instructables.com...sooo I'm gonna stick some more projects I want to do here, so I don't forget them. ^^;;

-http://www.instructables.com/id/MintyBoost!---Small-battery-powered-USB-charger/

Note: This is just gonna be a dump entry, so it's gonna update randomly.

I've been kicked out of my house twice...taken back twice, of course...

The first time I was angry, I hated what was being done to me, the callousness with which I was being thrown aside.

The second time I begged her to not do this to me, I wept, I was terrified.
I felt like the little boy who cried wolf, telling my friends what had happened, afraid.
I found a place to stay, with friends who treated me well, understood me.

But then she took me back, said I could stay here so I could go to school, and I was secretly relieved, even through I acted noncholant about the entire exchange, my face a bland mask and my only reply a shrug and a deadpanned "Alright.".

I have not been forcibly ejected this time...or perhaps I have, though through a choice of action rather than a few caustic words, and I've not said a word to anyone but my closest friends. Not even my mother knows that come June, I'll be packing my bags and leaving this town.

I'm moving upstate...Davis or Sacramento...first for the summer, and then perhaps for a few years while I re-organize my life according to my own rules.

I don't feel anything...fear...anger...

I just feel a little empty when I look at my room, at the place where I grew up.
And then this feeling of something akin to joy bubbles through the emptiness.

I'll be able to live as I please, associate with who I please, talk as I please and dress as I like.
I'll be able to hold my girlfriend's hand without secretly wondering if someone in that passing crowd knows my mother and will tell her. I'll finally be able to voice my political views and read the books I want to read out in a room with more light than my cold, dank room.
I won't be afraid that someone is monitoring my every move.

In other news!

So I cleaned my room yesterday!
And by cleaned I mean shuffled all my stuff around aimlessly.
And by shuffled all my stuff around aimlessly, I mean shoved it all under my bed.
At least I can see the floor though. :D

P.S.: YAY FIRST POST.~